A little heart broken.
Years of anticipation shattered.
Wow. This is really disappointing. I thought the cancellation of the Record Keeper was bad. But this is worse. Way worse.
So what can I say? I’m not sure. I’m still trying to gather my thoughts and make sense of it all. It’s hard. Very hard.
And yet, the one thing that keeps me from becoming discouraged and enraged is the one thing that matters most above all: Jesus. Telling others about him, his love, his grace, his power and his kingdom. That alone is my passion. And guess what? I love Adventism. I love it because it is the one movement on earth that captures the narrative of scripture – its God-story – in a way that is breathtakingly beautiful. And come what may, I just cannot stop telling this story.
But what about the church? I mean, its one thing to love the Adventist narrative. But do I love the church as well? It’s administration. It’s politics. It’s “outdatedness”?
Truth is I do. Yes, it is horribly outdated. Yes, it drives me crazy at times! But I still love this church. And regardless of how disappointed I may be I will not allow a spirit of dissension and rebellion to take root in my heart. My church is not perfect. Not by a long shot. But neither am I. And yet, I can see the hand of God at work in both. I see him at work in my imperfect life. I see him at work in our imperfect church. So I hang on, not because of the administration or the structure, but because whenever I am tempted to despair I see the finger prints of God and it reminds me that this is his church and his grace – that crazy patient grace – is working still.
So I will continue to tell the Jesus-story. All of it. And I will continue to work with and pray for my sister pastors whose hearts are in this work. Let’s lose ourselves in Jesus and trust that he will guide us safely to the other side.[/box_holder]
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